Vision's Expression

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Posted by Becky Butler on December 28, 2019 at 8:20 AM Comments comments (1044)
Pain is a biting derangement of circumstance, where strain corrodes the mind, methodically over time.

Names for Pain

Posted by Becky Butler on December 27, 2019 at 9:50 AM Comments comments (65)
I'm running out of names for pain. When my circumstances continually pertain. The one Whom it is who is unchanged, makes my life never the same. It's taking alot to assuage the ache. Sometimes it lasts for a few hours sometimes it lasts all day. I make haste to chase after My God, to get me through, onward and upward into a better view. To the place where He pulls me up and pulls me through...................becky butler

Dragon Slayer

Posted by Becky Butler on December 24, 2019 at 1:05 PM Comments comments (34)
Again, with you shouldn't be sick because it's Christmas backlash. As if holidays are an exemption from pain and sorrow. I think this does a disservice �?? encouraging masks and fallacies about the depths of one's true nature. I have pain every day, there's nothing I can do to avoid that, believe me, if there is I'd be standing on my head drinking water upside down if that worked. But sometimes God doesn't assuage the ache, and He allows the pain to remain. Will Him, we blame, the One who can help? Do we run away from the Solution, or do we go to Him, the Difference Maker, the Way Maker, The Barrier Breaker, the Pain Taker, who won't change His nature like a traitor, for our God is a dragon slayer!

Resting before My King

Posted by Becky Butler on December 19, 2019 at 6:15 PM Comments comments (43)
There is nothing to take to assuage my ache, It is you Lord, that I continually chase and feel and find my way before Your throne to lay at Your feet and receive my healing called as Your own. Be that in moments, minutes, days, spans, or permanency. I'm grateful for the temporal relief, I'm humbled at the presence of this so weighty. Heavy to carry, this burden I'd like to bury, in the sand far away and act like its not an issue, but this disease cannot be wiped away with a tissue. It stays, stands, staunch and raw, consuming me from the inside out. So I go and stand before my King and I sit and receive my blessing, which is resting in His presence...........becky butler

When we "fail" to meet the bar of healthy.............

Posted by Becky Butler on December 17, 2019 at 10:00 AM Comments comments (26)
Does anybody struggle with other's notions of "Christians can't be sick; there must be sin issues.". Judgemental, hurtful thoughts of others who 'mean' well but just end up being well, 'mean.' I need Oxygen to live, To live. I also have Crohn's that is very active and draining. I write my way through into the Presence of the Lord and then let Him have His way in my life. I vowed to write about the ups and downs of life with Chronic Illness, and I am being judged harshly by those I love for "glorifying" sickness. But God can do what I cannot and make the way where I cannot. When I see doors closed, He opens the ones I need and keeps locked the ones I don't, As I don't need more struggles. Lord, keep me. Does anyone else get "beat up" by their loved ones and others for being quote "sick?' ........I have to defend my going to the doctor and the fact I need oxygen. This is a necessity but is viewed as skewed by my healthy and not so healthy loved ones. I see God more in my chronic nature of need and dependency than when I could do all on my own without. He will hold my hand the whole way that I'm sick, and NOT hold it AGAINST me. That's not who HE is. The Lord does for me when I cannot, and in Him, I rest and cast my lot. Knowing He will care for my every step, every breath, every moment on the way to dance before my King..........................................becky butler


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